proofs are in the pudding

I'm one of those people who doesn't believe something will happen until it happens. When I'm working on a book, I don't believe I will finish until I actually write the last page. Despite months of final revisions, copy-editing, deciding on a cover, etc., it wasn't until I saw the lovely proofs of Queen of Unforgetting last week that I really believed the book will see the light of day. Is it a failure of imagination? My constant irrational pessimism despite all evidence to the contrary? Whatever. I went through the proofs with a fine tooth comb, then sent my notes back to my editor. My job is done.